I'm not such kind of person that suffers from insomnia quite often. But I could hardly fall in sleep last night. Anxiety, Depression, fear and pressure bothered me over and over again. There was a smell of spicy pizz pervading in my bedroom, birds were making noise outside the window all the time. Typically neither of these things affect me, but they did last night. I turned on the computer and played "Enya" to assist sleeping. It helped a little bit, but I still woke up frequently in song intersections. I guess I finally dropped asleep in early morning, but then it came the nightmares, which I can barely remember now.

    Sometimes life sucks a lot, but I don't have the right to complain. Things happened, I gotta pay.

    Sorry for those who read these shitty words. I feel a little better after imposing you guys to read my bad mood. Thanks a lot.

    Smile, as the way I always do. ^_^

 

 

    

 

晚上回家，Adam和Amy在吃饭。

Adam: Hey Leo, do you think that Tibetan people should get their freedom?

Me: No....

Adam: Why not?

Me: Cuz I'm a fucking Chinese!

Adam: They are killing Tibetans over there.

Me: Chinese people have been kill too.

Adam: But you guys invaded them.

Me: You're probably right, but Western civilization invaded Native Americans' land too

Adam: ....

Amy: I don't think so... Uh...I don't know much about that.

Me: There is pretty much no more Native American nowadays, their culture is destoried.

Amy: They got Indian reserves...

Me: At least we keep Tibetan culture.

Adam: Yeah, fuck those Natvie Americans. Those girls are HOTTT...

Me and Amy: .......

 

完毕，二人跑去洗澡了，我继续吃我的青豆牛肉。看到Newsweek上一篇文章，有两句写得不错：

1）...boycott Beijing's Games carries the notion of responsibility too far. After all, the United States has much closer ties to Saudi Arabia, a medieval monarchy that has funded Islamic terror. Should the world boycott America for this relationship?

2) Chinese government's handling of the protests in Tibet is digraceful, but humiliating the entire country over it by boycotting the Olympic game would make matters worse.

 

难得闲下来。回美国之后这段时间，基本每天平均工作到10点回家。每周末都要驱车130迈去普度。高节奏，强冲击的生活使得我浑身都散发攻击性的气味。不会感觉有多累，25岁的男生，是处在体力的巅峰状态吧。

 

今天决定7点回家，小做休息，洗一下积压的衣物，煮个小面吃，放上鸡蛋和香肠，没什么特别好吃得，就要讲究个闲散。拿出压在箱子底下的金属盒子里的《Phantom of Opera》，塞进CD, 听起来却很轻快优美，不再带有怨念了，或许早不该有了，只是我未发觉罢。最近应该要去纽约，可以听Phantom去，还可以做很多事。回想起坐在loveseat里看"Chicago"的时侯，后知后觉的我怎么当时就无法体会那样的快乐呢。

 

今天老头子回来，恰好收到Tony扔来的两个大paper, 要给老头过目。我是唯一在西北负责这个合作project的人了，又有的忙鸟……